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JOURNAL ENTRY:
Sunday, August 03, 2003
RESPONSIBILITY: THE CONSEQUENCES OF KNOWING THE TRUTH

My God: I say to You that You are to me my Life. And it seems to me that it is surely the truth about me that I have no basis for living, I have no foundation to build upon; I have no purpose for being… without You, or apart from You. You are now indeed, my entire identity, and all I base my life upon is in and about You.

Yet, even as I declare my love for you and my dependence on you and my intimacy with you, I fear that I am probably as dim as Peter when he pledged allegiance and You told him that very night he would deny you three times before dawn and the crowing of the cock. He was as the crowing of the cock. He thought he was 100% for You, but he found out how shallow his willingness to lay down his life really was when there would be consequences for knowing You.

I am learning to stop being afraid of KNOWING THE TRUTH.
Why would I be afraid of The Truth?
Anytime I am tempted to deny The Truth, especially about my self, and within my self, and anytime I find my self ‘stretching’ The Truth, exaggerating, minimizing, manipulating, editing… The Truth, I am being seduced by The Father of Lies. Sometimes, like Peter, I really don’t realize my own weaknesses. Sometimes I think higher of myself than I ought. By experience, I learn what and Who The Truth is about me. I learn when I find my soul denying The Truth what she is really afraid of. There is nothing like pressure to show up weakness.

JESUS CHRIST I HEAR YOU ASKING, ‘WHO DO YOU SAY I AM?’ WHO AND WHAT DO YOU SAY THE TRUTH IS? HE SAYS, “I AM THE TRUTH”.

‘I AM THE TRUTH, DO YOU KNOW ME? ARE YOU WILLING TO KNOW THE WHOLE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH, SO HELP YOU GOD?

HOW MUCH OF ‘THE TRUTH’ ARE YOU WILLING TO KNOW BEFORE YOU WILL BEGIN TO BACK-PEDDLE AND MOON WALK?
HOW MUCH OF THE TRUTH DO YOU DARE KNOW AND SAY ABOUT YOURSELF BEFORE YOU NEED TO STOP BECAUSE IT IS TOO MUCH… TOO MEANINGFUL, TOO POWERFUL?

THE TRUTH IS REALITY. GOD IS REALITY. JESUS IS REALITY. LIES DENY REALITY. LIES DENY THE TRUTH. LIES LOVE DARKNESS AND WANT SOME THINGS HIDDEN. LIES DENY JESUS CHRIST. A LIAR DENIES KNOWING HIM. DENIAL IS AN AGREEMENT WITH THE SPIRITS OF DECEPTION AND DARKNESS THAT YOU WILL REMAIN BLIND IN ORDER NOT TO KNOW OR SEE THE TRUTH. DENIAL IS A COVENANT AND CONTRACT WITH THE ANTI-CHRIST THAT YOU CANNOT SEE OR HEAR OR KNOW THE TRUTH THAT MAKES YOU FREE. IT IS A DEAL WITH THE SPIRIT OF RE-SIGN-ATION THAT RE-SIGNS YOUR CONTRACT TO CHANGE IT TO AGREE WITH THE LIE AND BE BLIND TO THE TRUTH. AT ALL COSTS ONE BOUND IN A SPIRIT OF DENIAL MUST NOT RECOGNIZE THE TRUTH. THEY ARE HYPNOTIZED

I am concerned for my soul, I am not ready to know how weak I would be under torture. I know I would be lying to deny You, Lord, and that is the whole deal… It is the necessity to practice to speak The Truth out of our mouth regardless of consequences, what the true reality of our heart is. Otherwise we are liars. It may seem a light thing now, but the practice and art of lying and denial and exaggeration and minimization and manipulation with words will one day be a life and death matter. Why would I be intimidated by anyone else in order to choose what I say as based on who they are and what they would want to hear RATHER THAN THE TRUTH? What is God’s will for me to speak? Why would I ever be ashamed of The Truth, who, personified, is Jesus Christ, The Son of God. We are no longer to know Him after the flesh, (2 Cor 5:16-17
‘Therefore, from now on, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know Him thus no longer.” NKJV)
but He tells us how to know Him now… I Am The Truth and The Light and The Resurrection and The Life and The Way and The Door…

Mark 8:38 “For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him the Son of Man also will be ashamed when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels." NKJV

We are willing to admit we know THE TRUTH when it is safe and easy and free, but how much of THE TRUTH do we know when there is a price to pay for knowing THE TRUTH. What is THE TRUTH about me? What is THE TRUTH about you?

I NEED TO COME TO JOURNAL TO BRING MY SELF TO THE TRUTH AND INTO THE BRIGHTEST LIGHT, TO ASK HIM WHAT HE HAS TO SAY ABOUT ME AND ABOUT MY LIFE AND ABOUT WHAT I NEED TO DO NOW TO MOVE IN HIS MOST EXCELLENT WILL FOR ME. I DO NOT NEED ANYONE ELSE’S APPROVAL TO BE OKAY, BUT I NEED HIS APPROVAL AND DIRECTION AND BLESSING.

AS I BEGIN TO KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT MY SELF I MUST BRING MY SELF INTO A PROGRESSION AND GROWTH AND TRANSFORMATION UNTO THE MATURITY AND PERFECTION OF LOVE IN THE LORD.

THERE ARE STEPS INTO TRANSFORMATION THAT INCLUDE HEALING, DELIVERANCE, AND RESTORATION. TOOLS TO WORK IT OUT INCLUDE LOOKING TO MY GOD FOR HIS VISION FOR ME AND THE SETTING GOALS AND DEADLINES THAT ARE ACCORDING TO MY KNOWLEDGE OF GODS WILL FOR ME AND ALL OF THIS WILL COME OUT OF PRAYERFUL JOURNALING AND CONSIDERING ALL THE AREAS OF MY LIFE.

I NEED TO RE-EVALUATE STRENGTHS AND WEAKNESSES TO SEE WHERE I REALLY AM NOW AND WHAT ARE GOD’S PRIORITIES FOR ME TO WORK ON AND GIVE MY TIME AND ENERGY TO. WHAT IS NEXT AND HOW IS IT TO BE DONE?

APART FROM YOU, MY GOD, I CAN DO NOTHING. I PRAY AND I MOVE INTO THE POWER OF THE PRESENT SECOND AS I ONLY DO AND TAKE THE FIRST LITTLE STEPS TO DEFINE AND EVALUATE GODS WILL FOR ME IN ALL THESE THINGS.

THE PLAN THAT WORKS MY TRANSFORMATION PROCESS WILL ALWAYS INCLUDE:

1.)DECISION
2.)ACCOUNTIBILITY
3.)ACTION

JOURNAL ON:
• WHAT AM I TO DO?
• WHAT ARE THE DREAMS AND THE SPECIAL GIFTS GOD HAS PLANTED IN ME TO ACCOMPLISH HIS WILL AND PURPOSE FOR MY LIFE. WHAT IS MY TRUE POTENTIAL?
• HOW IS IT TO BE USED FROM HERE AND NOW?

DO A WORD STUDY AND BIBLE STUDY WITH DICTIONARY DEFININTIONS ON THE WORDS: PASSION/PASSIVITY