GEORGIANN

 

Pastor Georgiann, one of the associate pastors at His Present Glory, can be found before the sermon sitting on the platform strumming or drumming. She is a gifted musician on the Worship Team. Besides singing, she shines on the guitar, thunders on the drums and resounds on the keyboard. Wearing different hats at church is only part of her deal…

She wears a variety of hats that are unlikely chums in the secular world, too. You might use her as your broker, rather Minnesota, or Wisconsin, she’s liscensed there… or if you were to take a real estate class, she might be the teacher, because she does that too. Even more surprisingly, as the children are getting off that school bus in front of you… Georgiann may be the driver. She is also one of the entrepreneur partners in new Twin City based real estate company. Besides that, she is HPG’S office manager and knows more than anyone else about the church finances. Did I mention that she co-facilitates Spirit of Counsel groups and on top of that, she takes her turn at preaching and teaching once a month at His Present Glory, and she’s been doing that for a couple of years at least.

As long as she can remember, she tells us, it always was a desire of her heart to speak in front of multitudes of people. This God given desire is beginning to be fulfilled since her ordination in October of 2001. Her teaching and preaching style is pertinent to everyone. Its a mix of demonstrative personal and practical lessons that will not fail to change your daily battles into victories, but will bring you into a scripturally based, Word founded faith that has no where else to go. You might laugh and you might cry, but you won’t remain unaffected. You just may learn to laugh at yourself, and have no excuse left to any obstacle block you. Georgiann was born and raised in St. Paul, Minnesota as an only child. At the age of 13, while visiting her grandparents in Las Vegas, she attended their Foursquare Gospel Church. The moment she walked in the door she said she thought to herself, “Wow, I feel love here”. She now knows that what she felt was the love and presence of God. For a short time (maybe a month or two) she was a member of that congregation, was baptized, and learned of the salvation that comes from accepting Jesus Christ as her savior. She went home with a new Bible that her grandparents has given her and was never quite the same again.

As with many teenagers and their families, 13 can be a challenging year. Back home in Minnesota, life turned out to be just that, with a lot of turmoil mixed in. She did find a local church that she attended for a short time.

At age 16, during her first year in college, she innocently enough became involved in a friendship with a woman nine years older that her that evolved into a lesbian relationship. This began years of struggling with her biblical beliefs and the gay lifestyle she became so enmeshed in.
In her early twenties she entered her first inpatient treatment program for alcoholism. After a short period of sobriety she was right back where she had started, back in college, in yet another relationship and eventually drinking again.

She made another attempt to find a church and this time was befriended by a Christian woman. She entered counseling again and began to make some progress. Not long after that she would again end up back in the lifestyle in and out of more relationships. Would it ever end?

The gay lifestyle didn’t turn out to be so “gay” for Georgiann. In and out of many lesbian relationships, she found that none of them were filling the desire for intimacy that was burning inside. Try as she might, all she got out of it was a lot of misery and a recurrent drinking problem.Not that these were the only issues she had to deal with, rage and anger became major problems and blocks to healthy relationships for Georgiann. Loneliness was always there, no matter how hard she tried to have and keep friends. Her desire to fill this void always ended in disappointment as it led from one relationship to another.

During all this, Georgiann dealt with long term depression, codependency issues, and sexual addiction. All the while though, God kept pulling on her heart and drawing her near.
By the age of 40, Georgiann had reached a point where she knew she had to get out, this time for good, or she may never make it. She ended the relationship she was in and began drinking everyday. She found an outpatient treatment program for alcoholism and voluntarily admitted herself.

She was determined, after many former attempts, to get free of the gay lifestyle and redevelop the relationship with God that she had started so many years before at that Foursquare Gospel Church. She found a church, His Present Glory, and Pastor Judy Sky.

Eventually, complete and total freedom from homosexuality would come.

Georgiann shares:
‘Besides beginning to discover and explore who I was and had rejected, I also learned some things I needed to know and understand about who I am not. I heard for the first time about a ‘masculine spirit’.
Although I didn’t know what it was; I thought it was me, but it was an ungodly spirit that came along when I needed a way to cope, and it did me a lot of favors. It ‘protected’ me from men and it drew me to women in a way that was not of God. I gave my self over to it. I thought it was my way out of some horribly uncomfortable relationships. It separated me from the godly love of women when that was what I had always longed for. No man would ever be interested in flirting with me, they called me sir, without realizing I was really a woman.

I don’t understand all the dynamics. It protected me from something I was not comfortable with and brought me into a lifestyle where it was still acceptable for me to strive to be completed by closeness with a woman. I was not promiscuous. I wanted relationship.

All this was the cheap substitute that was instead of THE REAL THING, that God has provided in Jesus Chirst. Instead of that masculine spirit, I now have my spirit-man. So close and yet so far! Cheap substitutes have to have some similarities or they could not deceive.

My spirit-man is The Christ in me, a son of God after Jesus The Firstborn of Many Brethern, one of whom is my spirit! My spirit is just as masculine as any mans’ spirit.

Spirit is masculine, rather it is after Adam or after Christ, spirit is a son realm role and function. The soul realm is feminine, and my soul so longed for a strong and protective powerful masculine covering that would draw lines and keep boundaries. The Christ in me is The Real Thing! I was confused. I need the covering of the masculine in the most Godly way, and it was not there. I did not sense it until I began to realize that He is in me. He is over me. He is my covering. His love constrains me. He will never leave me or forsake me.
Because of my mistrust of the masxuline realm (I did experience some childhood sexual abuse) I chose to have my life be as free as possible from anything masculine that was not about me. I thought I knew and understood all that was strong and masculine and powerful about myself. I did not discern it without the supernatural gifts of The Holy Spirit. I was deceived. I didn’t have eyes to see. I had no sense of smell in the unseen realm until I received The Gifts of The Holy Spirit.

Besides that masculine spirit I was dealing with, I had also gradually developed and taken on a ‘man-hating spirit’, too. It would contend and reject and criticize and compete with men. It did not want them to have any power. It’s thoughts were that men were abusive and could not relate to women. I felt protective over women. Men seemed dangerous and ungodly. I would rather be alone, or fill all the roles myself than to have to be ‘open to’ or trust a man with my vulnerability. No way! Not a chance. So that was another thing I had to confront and face and deal with… not only a spirit of homosexuality, but also a masculine spirit , and along with that, a man- hating spirit. You see, I had to overcome a stronghold. There were three in one and that kind of a ‘cord’ is not easily broken, rather it is unto life or unto death, a three-fold cord is a strong hold. I had a strong hold to overcome. The bolders were built into a wall and I was block and I was tied and I was bound… and I have a Savior and I have a Deliverer and I have a Redeemer. Isn’t that good news?
I yelled and cried, yet I hated it more than anyone else could. I wanted to be who God designed me to be. I could not find peace in this world and I could not find peace in that world. I was in torment. I had a battle going on within, and I thought that what The Bible seemed to say was impossible.

Today I know it was not. Today I am so comfortable being the feminine woman I am, and I once was so ‘butch’. I could not imagine that I could ever be so much at home in my own skin.

I worked hard to accept and develop my feminine identity that was so hidden and bound up. I am learning how to have healthy relationships with both men and women. Everyday that goes by I become more and more free.

I also learned about the spirits of rage and anger that had a hold on me and how to deal with and have victory over them. I have gained victory over the sexual addiction issues and the problems that I once had with alcohol. I would not trade the life I have now for any favor that any of those things ever did for me. I did not know that this condition existed for me. I thought I was different and I thought this was hopeless for me.

I am the first one to say that I am far from finished, but I Thank God, I am becoming more and more emotionally stable and more and more sane with every passing day.
I believe with all my heart, that the bottom line for the vast majority of people in the gay lifestyle is that they are looking for that bond and that love which come from the same sex parent. I know I was looking for a mother’s love. I also know that there is healing and deliverance from the torment, no matter what the issue is. There is a way out. There is complete and total freedom.
There is a way out of homosexuality and a way into heterosexuality. There is a river to cross. Praise God, I am heterosexual!

Pastor Judy talks about ‘real love’. I believe it is something we all need and all desire.
Where is this real love? It’s in Him. It’s in every one of us who are His children.

My prayer and desire for all of us is found in Ephesians 3:16-19 (Amplified): May He grant you out of the rich treasury of His glory to be strengthened and reinforced with mighty power in the inner man by the [Holy] Spirit [Himself indwelling your innermost being and personality].
May Christ through your faith [actually] dwell (settle down, abide, make His permanent home) in your hearts! May you be rooted deep in love and founded securely on love,
That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God’s devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it];
[That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!